strangers

 assume this post was on the flashback. there is a girl. sparkling eyes. long hair. quite person and look shy. the most important is she was on the same lecture hall with me ! i remember what her wore on our first day in lecture. with her hair neatly tied and a green shirt. i really dont trust my feeling but yeah it was like a paper stamped . leaving a sign on it.  soon afterward, whenever i am going to attend the lecture and i started sweating heavily.! damn it.. the moment that stick the most in me was the moment when i wore the same pink with her. that time was in  chemistry class and my sight caught on her that we are on the same pink !."blushing" i cant concentrate. i swear ! every single minute my time on lecture wasted on her. then  soon after that, my time on lecture class become my artwork class. i drew her. from every angle she sat . call me crazy but i cant help myself from stoping my hand to draw her beautiful face. every page on my book written off her name . i keep this feeling inside  for a long time . and until the last sem we had, i still keep this only btw me and myself. secretly draw her , asking about her, and more likely to say stalking her. i try not to but my brain own my body. lol i know im just a fool but this is the only way i can do .i tell no people about this . and suddenly i have the guts to wish her as the exam is around the corner. but i take the first step. wishing her gudnight everytime before i went to sleep. and there is a time when i dont expect my hp to vibrate for notification suddenly show a text from "her" and beyond my excitement i read it written down "gudnight" . only a word really give a bed of roses to my dream.when this thing continuously to happen, suddenly i realize that i climb a mountain with only a left leg.she was perfect to me but i am far beyond the uncomplete. so i take my next move , to letting go. i know that i cant even qualified to stand beside her. so i take my backward. . i just hope that she will know about this although it impossible.,well i dont pray to god for miracle. but i pray to him to make her happy. the real guy who will fit the empty spaces btw her finger.i know my level so yeah . :) as a stranger, i secretly wish u for the best.