the existence

people keep denying about the existence of  the thing that they condemn  to their believe. the word no never bullshit keep  become the first row . i am not on any intention to change all of those mind but i just want to share the simplest way of human thinking.  for example god.  1st of all i want to tell  the world that i am nobody and never be good in pray but i as a human i do know how the real think of human work . evryday people keep saying god is not exist .  well i cant proof it as well that is he real or just  in a book with a lot of stories of him . but it just as simple as this . why does people still confused  about the existence of an alien ? it is like this . do u believe in copa? well if u're thinking right now no need to take  a lot of time because i dont really know about what is copa . in order to say sumthing or to be clear to denying about sumthing existence u must know what is that thing. so i bet u hard to believe in copa because u dont actually know what is that , then if u say god is not exist it mean that u know what is god . this obviously u only condemn in ur own thinking about god .   its good to realize than only to act like u are the one who know evrything . to be honest im not a good person. its rare for me to take the ground on my knees and pray to him for this living . but as least i do know how to think in a good way. if u dont believe in sumthing doest mean they not believe in u . and obviously , the way we react about it totally  change our mind on it. people say does god really almighty ? what does he do? god cant be all-knowing? absolutely . god cant be all-knowing . for example if baby was born and u ask god about what is the baby gonna be in the future . a thief? and god only can say yes and no. if the answer go for maybe this show that god had doubt . it the same like we pray. they say god will answer in 3 . yes no and maybe. what about 100 murderers, right after slaughtering people and  they ended up praying to god to forgive them and unfortunately god asnwer go for maybe . then 100 people will take obscuration that they will not forgiven easily. but to be clear god is not a tool for removing sin . that y thre is the answer maybe. it is all the matter of think . it is same like why there is a police if we still didnt know if there is a crime? so like the baby if god asnwer maybe it actually show that god giving the baby life to live with happiness but the rest is up to how the baby think about his or her life.  is u ask if god want to a happy life why is he not creating only  a people that master in pray? this show about ourself. we cant be good all the time. sumtimes there is a time we need to take the bad to survive.  but it just the matter how we think about it  .

crossed

i just crossed today . well this ashy thing xD  i feel holy . although i stand inside the bus all the way to home but i don care . xD  when i get that ashy thing i really felt that i was so close to him . tell u what there is another reason why i am  happy. it becoz i met this person on kik and she super kind. xD we talk almost evryday even the time was completly act as night and day but i doesnt matter. she is understanding . i share most of my bad and good time to her. and honestly she made my day . idk but i am happy as long as the conversation of ask eating why between us never gonna end . well on this ash wednesday i just wan to thank to god for giving me the chance to remove the feeling of lonely for a while. as long i can talk to her i will take care of this talk as sumtimes i feel she was my real FRIEND!