the day for the best!

i aged so fast. 19 . i dont like to talk about him but yeah maybe this day was meant for him. even we should realize that he is perfect everytime but this day is to tell people that how great they are in the world. firstly i still remember the time when we go to fish up together. he told me to grip the thing. patient and enjoy the catch. but that time i was only 8 and i dont have a piece of patient in me so i got nothing. he told me we need to be patient to do sumthing or it just end as waste. so the time pass by. it getting awkward to say "i love u" to him. he raise we all with discipline. everynight he ask us to gather up and share everything on our mind. i was so small that time and i know nothing what is going on. i just saw everybody talking about their probs . but i do know one thing. i know that he really concern . though it was always a hard day for him but he never  loose down his responsibilities. when i was 12 i have an incident with him. that time i sit for my big exam and i told him i will be home at 3pm . but i lie to him . i end up at my friend house until 5 and that was the time he leave a scar on my hand. when i get home he was exploded with anger and his monstrosity act really hurt me so bad. he land me a a lot of punch and hit me with a huge hard wood .that time i really think i was going to die. the final blow from him was when he punch me on my neck .i fainted. when i open my eyes i saw i was in the bed with my hand bandaged. but i never blame him . becoz i need to pay for my own wrong. when time goes by ,i realize that the punch that he gave me when i was 12 gonna be the last . he dont live with us anymore. until now i saw him seldomly. but i know. it doesnt mean that he did not care about us. i know he always care about us. there was a time when i come to see him and suddenly my  tears act by itself. it keep running down my face. my tears would tell the world that how i miss him in my life. in this special day i really want to tell the people that appreciate every minutes u spent with him . make him  smile becoz we do not know the time that we already cant. there is no perfect father but all father will love perfectly.

stupid doll head !

people say holiday is the best.. well i cant deny it but honestly i must admit that there also a moment when i feel damn boring during the break. so to ease the "pain" i visit this blog. to write somthing .  about the title , actually i got pranked by my bro . he always do shit to me but i dont care. thats the bond right? xD well today i went to hospital to see my sist if there is any changes of circumstances of her. well she actually fine .and after a few hour, when the sweat being so "nice" to me we decide to  make our way to home. and we reach home around 3 pm. my body feel so heavy as last night i took a lot of alcohol and start the never endless story with my uncle though it actually ended with i slept on my laptop . my head gonna explode so i decide to take a nap . so the prank is about i awaken as i feel something beside me. i dont feel a damn to care .but it felt like the "thing" is staring at me. when i turn my head i saw big doll head with ugly face and messy hair staring sharp into my eyes with smile. i was FUCKING shocked ! my reflect was to punch the doll head. my eyes is wide-open . my heart race. sweat all over my body . then i shout with anger " WHO PUT THE DAMN DOLL HEAD HERE?' without reply i heard a devilish laugh outside. "ITS NOT FUNNY  !"  then i throw away the doll outside. no one goin to admit. all the people here say "not me ". then i swear to my penis i will revenge. HAHAHA *evil laugh .then my bro take the doll head while laughing and put it on the box. but what i extremely confused is when i woke up at 1 am to pee before that i swear i clearly saw the doll head inside the box but when i get up and after peeing  and  before i enter my bedroom i saw the doll head in front of my room door . staring at me. but when sleepy conquer me i dont really care about it . i just go to my bed and continue to sleep . in the morning i saw the doll head at the box where my bro put it. so yeah . if that was the second prank well they success to move me. but if not well what was that?