sleep forever

have u ever experienced dream of dying? well this is not the 1st time for me and this happen about 2 weeks ago . sumtimes i prefer to refuse in believing but it ended by creeping me up. idk what the f is  goin on but 4 years ago i dreamed about i was in a cold dark place. i was frozen as it the mighty cold had devouring my soul. i been yell for hours for help . but it was nothing. i am so afraid . and when suddenly i saw a guy pass by . i shouted at him . "hey help me i freezing up .' but the reaction completely out of my expectation. he just give me a glance  and continue his walk . it look like he CANT see me ! i was totally creep me out. and i woke up after that . the cold sweat full on my body . and what is really giving me goosebump , the last 2 week i had the same dream . i was confused and when i went for my fren blog i just saw a post of him about me. he said he saw me die in a snowy place. 1stly he saw me tied up and lay down on the ground. he try to help with my another fren but it was to late. when they reach me i already dead ! kenny was dead. i was super terrified. and the night before i read his blog i just dreamed again about i was sick . my body was burning up. i cant even move my finger. and all my fren sending me to hospital . while i was on the patient bed i had vague vision but i swear i completely good in hearing. and i heard my fren ask the doctor if i am okay.. then the doctor said am i getting this disease for more than 2 days and my fren answered yes. then the doctor say i am sory but he can live for only 1 week . i was shocked ! my body shaking. my grip loosen. my heart race . i  am crying on that dream . and when i woke up my pillow was so wet becoz of my sweat. i dont know what does this all mean but i just hope this was not a sign for sumthing bad. my fren say don trust it . i will not !. but i already had a precuation step for anything.

keep calm and kill roshan

today i skip the whole class again. i woke up late becoz i try to finish the page chemistry until 5. and i cant wake up at 7. well i am sux at waking up . and i got exam but i fail to attend.  i dont know what to say but i am so disappointed to myself . but what can i do . that myself. but i really had tried to get rid of those bad habit of mine . i take it slowly. and i am changing. but human recovery cant be as wolverine right? that why i need time. i  really sory to people around me especially my classmate, the lecturer. i know u'll were upset to me. i am really sory. i just want to say i already take the route of changing . and now i try to keep calm as in DOTA. keep calm and kill roshan . but we cant survive forever. aegis only use-able once. i need to change ! and i promise. i will . i say it again. i can change !

the immature thinker

well life goin to reach to light end of the tunnel? if so i wasnt ready for it .well the life get tough . a lot of war happen . only from the wrong of the past .then they take the opportunity  to step on the head of the innocent that they think was weak . feeling so confident, throwing words about they are the best . as a regular guy inside the mock from them honestly they really tried my patience and was completely pain me inside ! long ago, i had the same thinking about it . that we need to fight . every unsettled business must be ended up by fight. a lot of people keep the bulshit on them , mocking them but i just think that not the correct way. i already on the same condition before . my guts gonna reach the top of my head to counter attack but i just realized i am the only person  have the mind to stand up and fight. then one moment when i was reading about'him' i just knew it by goin to fight it not the right thing to do to change people minds. god has a better plan for us .that y i prefer to keep silence. i  washed  my hand about it . every NO sumtimes will increases the percentage of the YES .