i feel totally gay

well , to be honest i am single . super boring and yeah its hell. i just don want it end the same as before. so yeah lets time fix it . i feel so gay. life? yeah gay life. avoiding for girl? it sux but i just need it. saw a holding hand , smile laugh and mostly the sweet talk uh kiling me.oh man . stay late night share story , the holding hand , kisses (wish i ever had) i miss them all . so im gay ? almost. i  just wish a fangy girl that good in fingerstyle or in other word guitar come to me and say . "hey the word of the day is me. how about u come to my place and take the word." i just wish it ! but its ok . i still happy and breathe in this lack of romance life.

life

out of night that cover me, black as the pits from pole to pole
i thank whatever gods may be for my unconquerable soul.
in the fell clutch of circumstance, i have not winced nor cried aloud. under the bludgeonings of chance my head is bloody but unbowed. beyond this place of wrath and tears looms but the horror of the shade. And yet the menace of the years finds and shall find me unafraid. It matt

ers not how strait the gate how charged with punishments the scroll. I am the master of my fate and i am the captain of my soul. If u can keep your head when all about you are losing theirs and blaming it on you, if u can trust urself when all men doubt you , but make allowance for their doubting too. If u can wait and not be tired of waiting, or being lied about,dont deals in lies, or being hated,dont give way to hating and yet dont look too good, nor talk too wise. if u can dream and not make dreams ur master, if u can think and not make thought ur aim, if u can meet with triumph and disaster and treat those two imposters just the same. if u can bear to hear the truth you've spoken. twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools or watch the things u gave ur life to broken, and stoop and build them up with worn-out tools. if u can make one heap of all ur winnings and risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss , and lose and start again at ur beginnings and never breathe a word about ur loss. if u can force ur heart and nerve and sinew to serve ur turn long after they are gone and so hold on when there is nothing in u except the will which says to them ; 'hold on!' . if u can talk with crowds and keep ur virtue . or walk with kings nor lose the common touch , if neither foes nor living friends can hurt u, if all men count with u, but none too much, if u can fill the unforgiving minute with sixty seconds worth
of distance run yours is the earth and everything thats in it. and which is more- you'll be a man .

ALL ABOUT SHIT HAPPEN

sumtimes life doesnt go as expected right? this will totally give shit to all who experienced it. well i think i am the one . i guarantee that when u were stabbed by a knife on ur back it will hurt less than see someone u trust asking totally about the damn scar of ur love one . i know this sounds bullshit but i dont care. cause i know how the shit feel . the feeling of longing , empty ,combine and create new damn loneliness. lol sound sux. but its reality . the person who inspired u , levelled up ur guts to be the one with her and finally he took all the kisses .i don really care about this shit but it really gave me a damn pain inside . so , ,maybe u should give all ur words before the time not allowed u too . but sumtimes we must take it . cause that how we can learn to give away in our life . so yeah . let her or him go . maybe they were not meant for u . 

well to give it directly , we cannot push all things to happen according to our plan but sumtimes we must know the different between defeated and take defeat. defeated is u're struggling , striving and fighting but in the end u still down on ur knee to the ground. take defeat is simple that is to hold the title loser before the whistle blow up. so whatever is it , sumtimes we must accept defeat in our life because defeat is not evil its just let us to know about our weakness.