the day for the best!

i aged so fast. 19 . i dont like to talk about him but yeah maybe this day was meant for him. even we should realize that he is perfect everytime but this day is to tell people that how great they are in the world. firstly i still remember the time when we go to fish up together. he told me to grip the thing. patient and enjoy the catch. but that time i was only 8 and i dont have a piece of patient in me so i got nothing. he told me we need to be patient to do sumthing or it just end as waste. so the time pass by. it getting awkward to say "i love u" to him. he raise we all with discipline. everynight he ask us to gather up and share everything on our mind. i was so small that time and i know nothing what is going on. i just saw everybody talking about their probs . but i do know one thing. i know that he really concern . though it was always a hard day for him but he never  loose down his responsibilities. when i was 12 i have an incident with him. that time i sit for my big exam and i told him i will be home at 3pm . but i lie to him . i end up at my friend house until 5 and that was the time he leave a scar on my hand. when i get home he was exploded with anger and his monstrosity act really hurt me so bad. he land me a a lot of punch and hit me with a huge hard wood .that time i really think i was going to die. the final blow from him was when he punch me on my neck .i fainted. when i open my eyes i saw i was in the bed with my hand bandaged. but i never blame him . becoz i need to pay for my own wrong. when time goes by ,i realize that the punch that he gave me when i was 12 gonna be the last . he dont live with us anymore. until now i saw him seldomly. but i know. it doesnt mean that he did not care about us. i know he always care about us. there was a time when i come to see him and suddenly my  tears act by itself. it keep running down my face. my tears would tell the world that how i miss him in my life. in this special day i really want to tell the people that appreciate every minutes u spent with him . make him  smile becoz we do not know the time that we already cant. there is no perfect father but all father will love perfectly.