to think , u're still inside !

so life goin on? why not? but i feel that im stuck . i cant breath. the memory holds me tight .i should throw it away but cant . and to admit , a lot of smile had really shackled me. but i try to neglect. because. i dont need to say. people would laugh at loud reading this but i dont have an y intention to really care about it , i just say what i felt inside , i pictured it , every moment about it , now im paralyzed behind . i cant move on  can sum1 break the bond ?the ghost of you . condemned .it was me . the one who fool . the puzzle of the reality. a random scene toying me. the voice , the smile . completely devouring me.the distance increase. i cant hold it. just let it pass. since when u become the most friendly? u come every dream of mine .!!! go awayy. i cant loose the chain . damn . asking about having new hand-hold ? why not? it just you who kept pulling me from to do so .u haunt me . i want to feel free yet i will. i shall follow the truth . ignore the rest. keep climbing . and totally u will disappears. i am taking the best way to go through , hope and indeed it will work . i should say goodbye before . so should i say now?  if i were given a chance ,i just do hope that u will smile just like the way it become my greatest nightmare again .